Random Thought . . . Part 3

I'm startin' to wonder if these thoughts are really random, dey mite be betta then nitemares but I still can't stand em'. I used to be a lost soul just wanderin' around, but eva since I met HER I guess you could say that I'm found. So even when I'm not physically there I'm always around cuz my chain is around HER neck so to see me, all SHE has to do is look down. When we first met all we would do is exchange drive-by looks, now if SHE wants to find me SHE can just check my Facebook. And SHE neva has to worry cuz SHE knows I'm always on, so when I'm out the country SHE knows I'll be back soon cuz I can't be gone for too long, cuz HER love is everlastin' like repeatin' my favorite song. Whether from beginning to end or end to beginning our feelings neva stop because this love is never ending. Anyone before HER is just a lesson learned, anotha waste of time, or simply time burned. Anyone after HER would neva be an improvement, cuz SHE'S a revolutionary like Michelle Obama, or Rosa Parks in the Civil Rights Movement. Cuz no matter what happens or whateva I'm goin through SHE always keeps me strong so I can get to where I'm goin' to. Cuz you see with HER I get my moneys worth and more, so if SHE was wal-mart, I'd be greedy and just buy the whole store. SHE asked me, "Would you pick me up if I fell flat on my face?" I said, "Hell nah cuz I wouldn't let you fall in the first place.". SHE'S got a lil bit of a temper, but knows when to use it. Me personally I think it's kinda sexy so I wouldn't want HER to lose it.

Till next time,

TOPSYKRET

I'm still tryna see what THAT be like.

I dont even know what to think these days, I got so much goin' from school problems, to money problems, to friend problems, to health problems. So as I try to slow things down and make sense of everything I just do the opposite and things get more and more confusin'. All I want is to be able to go to sleep and wake up on my birthday(July 18th). Its like everything is on my mind at one time so I can't concentrate on any one thing, then once I do focus in on somethin' I don't know what to do about it. My deepest fear is not that I'm inadequate, but that someone wont be able to see past and/or deal with those inadequacies. Now I'm not just talkin' about ANYBODY I mean someone close to me, more like someone I wanna be with. Maybe I'm just worryin' too much, maybe I've got too much on my mind to make sense of anything, whateva it is, its eatin away at me ALL the time. Maybe what I need is someone to reassure me that I'm worryin' for no reason, that my insecurities are all in my head. Either way I can't just give up, even though I may feel like it sometimes, cuz I'm still tryna see what THAT be like.

Till next time,

TOPSYKRET

Random thought . . . Part 2

I guess last time I forgot to touch on some things, you see I was so concerned about treatin' HER right and fulfillin' HER dreams that I forgot to explain that in relationships its not all about the "SHE". I mean what if after all that SHE just packs up and leaves? I mean will all the bullshit yall went through be all for nothing? Maybe its somethin' SHE just doesnt understand? Maybe what she doesnt realize is that I could be happy with HER by just holdin' HER hand? Yea I know we all grown and thats what little kids do, but I'd do anything just to show HER I care too. And when I let HER have HER way, its not cuz im weak, its cuz I'd do anything just for HER to stay. So wheneva SHE thinks I could care less, I just say what Drake said, "You da fuckin' best!". Cuz wat SHE doesnt know is even when SHE says SHEs fed up wit dudes, I come right back cuz I refuse to lose, and I tell HER I'm not perfect but I got a desire to improve. But what if just like treatin' HER right, my sincere words dont work either, should I just say "have a nice life." and leave HER? Even if I could I wouldn't, cuz dats not my style. Cuz see I'd go to hell and back just to see HER smile. And I wouldn't think twice about it, or even take take time to think longer, cuz wateva doesn't kill me just makes me stronger. So then SHE could have a stronger man, cuz even if SHE doesnt know it, I'm tryin' as hard as I can. But whats the point of "steppin ya game up" if SHE doesn't wanna see? Its like SHE can look at everything about me except what I'm tryin' to be. Now don't get me wrong SHE is someone I'd neva wanna disrespect, and no matter what happens SHE is someone I'd neva regret. So regardless of what happens next, for HER, I will always be grateful. Whether we become lovers or friends, to HER I will be faithful.


Till next time,

TOPSYKRET

Random thought . . .

So I was rollin' around and in my mind it occured, what if GOD was a "HER"? I came to the realization that men probably wouldn't be cheatin' on women so much if that was the case. They might begin to think, would I treat HER the same? Would I still be runnin' game on HER? And what type of ways would I want HER? Would I want HER for HER mind or HER heavenly body? I mean I can't be actin bogus with someone so GODLY and if I was wit HER would I still be wantin my ex? Then they think about the lies, the greed , the money, and the sex. Now me personally, I wouldn't be ashmed to give HER part of my check, cuz I'd be wearin HER cross which is a symbol of HER heart around my neck. If I got hurt I'd just reflect, cuz in the streets of the Chi or anywhere I'd ride wit HER cuz I kno for me she'd die. Through good and bad I'd call on HER and I wouldn't be jealous if otha brothas worship HER, cuz see I walk this earth for HER, so you can believe that I'm grateful just to be in HER presence so I'm gonna stay faithful.

Till next time,

TOPSYKRET

You know you're from Chicago when. . .

You know what the phone number for Empire Carpet is!Your living room is called the "front room"
You don't pronounce the "s" at the end of Illinois, and you get irritated at ppl who do.
You measure distance in minutes and everything is pretty much 15 minutes away.
You try and get somebodys attention by sayin, "aye joe!"
You know who Larry Benard Hoover is.
You still consider the sears tower the tallest building in the world.
You know where soldier field is.
Your school classes were canceled because of cold weather.
Your school classes were cancelled because of hot weather.
You've switched from heat to air conditioning in the same day.
You still have your "Jewel's" card even after you moved.
You give directions using every food place in the city.
Example: "Go down stony isle till you get to white castles, den go 2 blocks and make a right at Harold's, then make a left a Giordano's and im the first buildin on your right."---see what i mean?
Your idea of a great sandwich is when the meat is twice as big as the bun, it has everything on it, and a slice of dill pickle is on the side.
You don't call it a "sandwich" because it's a "sammich".
You know what a "pizza puff" is.
You know what a "gyro" is.
You have shoveled snow on Halloween before .
You drink "pop" not soda, or even worse, "coke".
You understand that I - 290, I - 90, I - 94, and I - 294 are all different highways.
You know the name of the interstates: Stevenson, Kennedy, Eisenhower, Dan Ryan, Ronald Reagan and the Eden, but you call then all "Expressways".
You ride the "L" everywhere.
You refer to anything south of the I - 80 as "Southern Illinois".
You refer to Lake Michigan as "The Lake".
You refer to Chicago as "Da City".
You still talkin about the game Michael Jordan played in like it was just last night.
No matter where you are, when you hear the term "downtown", you immediately assume they're talking about downtown Chicago.
You have two favorite football teams: The Bears, and anyone who beats the Packers!
You get both the Chicago Sun-Times & Chicago Tribune delivered to your house everyday.
You know that lake shore drive is ALWAYS crowed.
You think 35 degrees is GREAT weather to wash you car!
You know what Chicago Style Pizza REALLY is, and it ain't at the Uno's Pizzerias outside of Chicago. (trust me!)
You know why they call Chicago "The Windy City".
You understand what "lake-effect" means.
You know what CTA stands for.
You can distinguish among the following area codes: 847, 630, 773, 708, & 815.
You respnd to the question "Where are you from?" with a "side".
You wear gym shoes, not sneakers.
You have at some time in your life, used your furniture to claim your parking spot in the winter.
You have watched an out - of - towner or a suburbanite get beat up for moving furniture guarding a parking spot.
You pronounce "on" as "ahn" and not "awn" and you pronounce "here" as "hea".
You have had atleast one pair of AF1s..
You always have a craving for Harold's at 2 in the morning and always go cuz they open all night
anyway.


Till next time,

TOPSYKRET